Internal motivation

Kadam piche lena hi pdega socha na tha jo kabhi, aaj aakhir vo faisla lena hi pdega socha tha, koshish bhi ki lekin aaj, oon koshisho ko chodna hi pdega, drd toh bhut ho rha hai, lekin oos drd ko sehna hi pdega, aakhir kaar faisla liya hai toh aaj piche hatna hi pdega,kya smjhu, kya smjhau,kise smjhau nhi pta,jisse kehna hai, aaj oose nhi keh paunga kyuki dosto iss duniya me tumhare alawa tumhara koi nhi,soch ke dukh hoga,.lekin mujhe aaj yeh faisla lena hi hoga kadam piche lena hi hoga, kya krunga kb krunga nhi jaanta mai abhi, kyuki suna tha lumbi chhlang lene ke liye kdam piche, lene hi pdte hai,lekin aankhe bhi nam hai,mnn me gam hai,socha tha kbhi koshishe krke sb kuch thik kr lunga, lekin naa kr paya shayd logo ke nazariye se ye mere haar hai ho bhi skte hai, lekin mere liye 2kdam piche jaakr lgane wali ek lmbi chhlang hai, bhut soch smjh ke faisla liya, dil pe patthar rkhke ye niddney kiya,dekh liya duniya walo ko aaj, jinke liye hai yeh ek khille wale baat.shyad ho skti hai apno se khhtas. jo bhi ho aaj faisla kiya, bhale hi majboori me lekin krna hi pdega mujhe kadam piche lena hi pdega, lekin haa yeh meri haar nhi jeet ki shuruat hogi.